Su Mi

I usually don't get very sentimental in Autumn, but it's different this year. I gaze up at the Northern sky, the bluest of skies, and it brings back the memory. It happened exactly one year ago with my feet in the water and the sky I once gazed upon resembled the sky I'm gazing upon now. I'm fond of the color blue much like the water at the wharf near home, much like the blue sky, much like the 
quilt and pillow in my room, and of course, my blue dress. I loved my house especially- I always felt as if I've lived there in a previous life of mine. It never felt unfamiliar even when I first stepped foot in it. That familiar feeling, I still remember it. But now, whenever I'm in the house, I always feel alone. There was one person I missed more than anything else in the world - the little girl who never hated her sister. Even when angry, her sweet doe eyes looked at me without a word- my dearest little sister, Su-Yeon. I never knew I could miss one person for the longest time. I grew to be very ill without her. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat, I couldn't speak, and I wept more than usual. It was truly what it meant to be lonely. I'm sorry I could not be there to save you. Do not forgive me your sister but do not forget her either. Your spirit constantly haunted me but that only made my illness worse. There is a saying here that you bury the one you love deeply in your heart which means you do not forget them until the very day you die. I had buried Su-Yeon deeply in my heart and she will always be there even after death. A year had passed by each time I look at that familiar blue sky, I think of her and long for her. On every windy autumn day, the sadness takes over me but still, I quite like this longing.

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